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>>202 No they never loved me. Perhaps they "loved" me, but not in action. You can't love someone and then beat them untill they scream and cry and then go on beating them some more. It's like women and abusive husbands, I kinda get why they still feel as though they are loved despite being beaten. >>732 Yeah, multiple times. Don't think I will ever act on it though, it's not worth it. Getting caught will ruin me for no point. I'll cut them off though once I have made decent money. Fuck 'em.

>>729 >>734 damn yaar thats depressing to read I always thought a childbirth is one of the most important chapter of a married life, and if you think about it its pretty scary that you are bringing another life into this world, completely separate from you who will grow to be a person with a life of their own I feel like many lundian parents cant figure out how much or up until what point they should "guide" then to the point where they completely fail to explore the outside on their own It gets worse when you realize how minute of a dumb mistake can ruin a childs life especially when the people aren't fit to raise children in the first place And its funny how rest of the civilized world built thier society in such a manner to optimize the growth and development of youngin's so they could grow up healthy and fulfilled Compared to that we might be living in un the worst period in human history to marry and have kids, makes me where exactly it went wrong

>>736 Tomorrow it will be an year since my suicide attempt. I am too far gone, I have completely dissociated from reality. I no longer feel that I exist. Everything feels like a dream. Sometimes I hear sounds, mostly my mother screaming or my father yelling. I try to keep myself occupied to stop drowning into my horrible memories... My childhood was filled with numerous such abuses. I needed up a weird kid socially isolated by people. I had no friends either. Now I am trying to build a life by myself one step at a time. I'm the /fit/ subhuman btw >>734 Sometimes I wonder if I'm incapable of being loved. Imagine having the people who brought you into this world, outright hate you for existing. I didn't ask for this at all. I cut my affections for them a long time ago. All I want now I a place where I can sleep without feeling scared. I hope you find happiness too anon :) <3

>>737 I haven't followed up your entire thread but if I recall correctly you're the same anon who mentioned his previous suicide attempt several times across various threads. Good to see you've decided to work on yourself instead of trying to force yourself outwardly. I feel like its a natural place to choose to end up in especially after being mentally scarred so bad. But beyond that do you see yourself being a father of your own children in the future? Would be introspective to know what you think of such prospect given the specific perspective that you hold. If yes then do think you would end up being a better parent or a role model than what your own?

>>738 I don't think I'll be a parent tbh. 1. I'm not mature enough to be one 2. I don't think I can deal with such a responsibility. I probably would be a better parent than my own parents, but that doesn't mean I would be a good parent. I also do not know how I will handle different situations. When I was a kid, if I ended up being an annoyance, I would be screamed at and beaten up by my father. If I failed to solve a homework problem quick enough, my mother would hit me with utensils. I have inherited similar type of anger unfortunately. I have noticed, when I was teaching someone in class, when they did not get a topic which seemed obvious to me, I suddenly felt a flare of frustration and anger. I'm better at controlling my emotions though. Also becoming a parent requires a partner, and I'm not really good at forming relationships. Also being with someone requires way too much effort than I can handle.

moar of an etsuko yakushimaru fan majiko also kidna nais

https://youtu.be/cK3NMZAUKGw?si=0io9dfscC3rTdE8H

https://youtu.be/cK3NMZAUKGw?si=0io9dfscC3rTdE8H So good

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MToMx6RCW-M

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MToMx6RCW-M Hedobangaaaaaaaaaa

>>603 cute>>620 also cute>>623 alao cute

Bloodywood collab was good Too many collaborations in metal forth tho Hope koba won't be retarded enough to do the same in next album

>>674 okay you know what fuck it since I got too much free time on my I will follow two seasonal's this and that neko girl show

>>664 No it's another nothing ever happens sol slop

>>679 Don't care, enjoyed it a lot

>>687 Ok? Why are you asking the question and then mad?

>>675 wat are u on abt niggroid

>>689 Except eating sleeping drinking and sex. everything we do is performative. I'm not doing a job because I want this company to prosper, I'm not studying for a exam becuz i want to understand these topics I'm not debating you to better understand ur point of view. I just want to lay down and rest that's my primary reason these all things are just performative and for not being bored. If the performative things results in getting fit I say go get it. I have passion but if its done for any other reason ist performative. I don't see any problem with that.

>>691 at that point you might as well consider it a second nature because one can only put up a facade for so long until it becomes a part of you in one way or another my initial point which I wanted to get across, being highly impressionable at a tender age is a given but what counts is your say in it after the fact, were you able to realize your choices that you made, willingly or unwillingly did you do it for yourself or not, why do people engage in acts they find themselves partaking what it for someone else or not? Did you have a end goal at that time? Were you able to figure it out now? Maybe you found the answers subconsciously and didn't know it or never will. What I wish to know is if somebody mulled over it or not.

>>692 Picrel from where?? Also, pls i do not want to go deep in the philosophical questions anymore. I've forgiven many people due to this rabbit hole i understand their way thier thoughts and I think it's thankless task. I want to enjoy whatever I do, not debate a cosmological exceptions which made us feel different and the forever quest of finding out why? In this chappal forum. Let us talk about anime in this thread.

>>693 screenie from Yani Neko Yeah I was somewhat reluctant to sway the the direction of this discourse but decided to let my thoughts out anyways And in hindsight it does fit into the theme of the topic if you do decide to give these two shows a watch, which I know I'm glad I did

Don't watch these shits

>>59 The shaft art style is so comfy somehow when it is not monogatari

>>61 >>62 >>63 Utter mental illness, stop shitting on threads, arigato

>>69 Retards will regurgitate same fucking words as goycial media and call other npc/redditors, kek. Total rape of these utter retards with picrel.

>>59 Seems like something shaft will make from the artstyle

>>59 The shaft animation style is so unique, it is a shame not many literary works match the energy on content level like monogatari did

>>327 Yaar abbo haggu, chal nali saaf kar

Deserved

>>320 Is this by maplestar? Link yawr

>>320 Why does he have the jew cap?

>>322 Yaar can you not sound like a faggot in one thread?

>>453 Its pretty good surprisingly, since every girl is different in his interaction, you end up liking one or another. I enjoyed ichika and her thighs a lot honestly, if she was real i would creampie her daily

>>458 A little girl who keeps trying to touch and suck her teachers sock. And i mean little little, by that. KG stuff.

>>466 Wym romcom is one of the best generas

>>475 Not in the state it is, repetitive cliche has made it hard to read where one could have read first chapter of nisekoi and predicted the shit ending a decade ago, its in pretty mediocre state

>>453 Yes, because cutr girls doing cute things is nice

>>183 this its over for you >>182 you need to move on. There is no waiting. Things will not improve. The way u feel now watching anime will feel even worse after 2 years. Stop wasting time and money on nostalgia. Move on. Its over. >t. 27 year old uncle who cant even enjoy cope isekai OP MC anime anymore because there is no growing left and I cant cope by saying one day I'll be like this cool OP because that one day is in past and I missed it.

>>185 i am not nostalgic, i dont really have this sentimental stuff in me, was just trying to find something to kill time.

>>115 Watch it in release order

>>115 I actually liked staple staple the most of all openings, renai circulation was never that enjoyable to me

>>651 Nise was better imo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOF_GkqMYTw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOF_GkqMYTw

>>439 horror stories is pretty good. it's eng dub is crazy funny and scary too

>>463 whoops, i meant ghost stories

>>439 If you dont mind some humour, Meiruko Chan is a good one. Watch it arround the mid night though, manga was much better IMO

>>464 All time comedy kino, kek, Parody are the only one that carry the same engery OG dubs had, with exception for parody and on crack dubs, i dont even care for dubs at all

>>439 Yami Shibai, its raining, summers would have been better time to watch horror tbh