What do i even do ?
I know my life will never be good
I am a poor skinny balding dude
i missed most of my life i will also miss most of it going ahead
who put the idea of a nice life in my head ?
Was it the media i hate , bollywood jewtube they made it so my life should be like this and that
but it is not, i was disappointed at first but then i realised what am i disappointed for ?
i knew i would go to a shit college cause i did not study, i knew i wont have any friends cause people think i am gay
i knew it all but i was still disapointed for what ?
I know if i dont do shit now it how life will be and maybe if i do shit it will be different
i want to remove that 'maybe' i know my life will be different not better per say but different for sure
it will different anyways just not right kind of different
procrastination, lock in, productivity is all a lie i hate it all
they are defining my life on a weird metric they have set and most sheeps are following (i dont mean marks i believe marks are everything and you are good at studying something)
all these life hack and bs wont work if you dont work
almost all of them are bullshit people are trying to sell
i used ai to create falsh cards and learn chemistry and i completed 1 chapter of it over a weekend
there was no hack or shit, just went through it the way i felt like or was bored which was maybe 4 hours
i knew everything the teacher was teaching still i atattended the lec and he did not even mark me present cause he did not hear my voice fuck him it was 1 lec anyways fuck it
i feel like i have a huge mental block i need to plan out but i am scared of it for god knows why i know it will make life easier and i can do it just by sitting down for an hour
