You’re here, reading this, and you’re off in a hurry to be somewhere, not literally but its in your mind, you want change, maybe you want to move, you want to change yourself, change something, be somewhere. Thats fine, I wont tell you that you’re better off, my biggest fear in life? Was always that I was better off the way I was, pursuit is lifelong, but let me tell you something. You’re somewhere right now, and this, has a feeling, breath it in, you can feel it, if you focus enough on it, colors will rub off and fragrances and most importantly a nascent effervescence, remember 2 years ago, remember when you were in another place? Remember that, its like a cassette, its a whole package, and you’re in one now, but soon you confuse the smells and the colors and the pomp and pageantry as the thing thats bothering you, thats not it, its the natural hum of life thats bothering you.
I once left my home for the first time, a long departure and you know, the strangest thing happened, i was no longer home, I couldn’t feel the colors or smells but the feeling, thatd I have so long at home which i confused for at home was back, it was like I carried with me at all times a chamber, a dimension, and it was not that great, dissatisfied, disarmed, disenchanted and disappointed.
I want to tell you that its okay, that the nascent effervescence of life, is okay, there is nothing to fix, nothing to do, you dont need to fix this, just sit and learn to swim in it. You can fix everything else later, but dont mistake the wall for the wallpaper. Youll be happier
