A mistakes I often make with myself is that even with a positive outlook I still find problems or things to fix, something wrong. I know there is comfort in it, there’s comfort in anxiety and there’s comfort in sitting down, worrisome, knowing theres many things wrong and that you have to solve them.
This belief no longer serves me, I’ve unintentionally putting myself in boxes and problems that repeat themselves only because I dont let go of the bitterness. Simply let go of the bitterness over the problem, and if you accept any amount of radical belief, know that thats enough, it is already okay.
>>97196
I only noticed this as im writing to someone, and im writing in general, I notice that I have to write a world where the problems exist, Its a reflex. It doesn’t matter that I’ve created so much positive good, I have to contrast it with this, and why? There is no platonic ideal of perception, theres so many stories about you, and any and all can be true depending on what you hold.
You’re a failure, a loser, or you’re someone, you’ve done something, you’ve been loved and respected, you’ve got something within that has expressed itself. All of it can be true, but you have to chose what you want to focus on
>>97196
Felvidek is still on my mind. I see faint glimpses as Ive always have of a larger complete idea. My creative process has always involved two things and I genuinely believe in divine or muse-like inspiration because at moments Ive caught it, there's ideas you muster up bit by bit and then there's ideas that come like something sent to you, its cheating almost, how finished they are. I dont know what im doing, and I know I ought to channel this more fervently and productively but I might make somethings today, and Ill post them here if I do.
