As I’ve spent the last year becoming stronger physically, I’ve inadvertently regained the beauty I thought I had lost, at 16 with a beautiful face and longer hair, it feels exactly like that, striking features coming out and my posture strong and upright. But the amazing thing is that as I’ve gotten more confident in myself, and not just “yea I feel good” but more like changing how I see reality on a day to day, literally believing different things and being an entirely different person, I’ve noticed that any repressed bisexuality or feminine traits are flowing openly. The spirit of competitiveness to me I realize is not masculine, I can use a masculine force in a crutch but long term I’ve found myself becoming more graceful, fast, happy. I dont really understand it, on one hand I’m more “masculine” than I’ve ever been, I’ve been basically conquering everything I can, winning at literal competitions and trying to work my best at everything, but on the other hand I dont feel like a grunting hulk or some alpha, but more like a needle.
>>55442
Openly accepting masculine tasks, waking up early, facing my fears, actually working on my career has made me loose and relaxed, where in masculinity is not really the case all the time, but 60% feminine and 40% Masculine. This has also just made me so much more happier and joyful and cheery
>>55443
Maybe this is who I always was, and I like it. I dont mind being this way, it’s better than writhing in pain about the past. Optimistic to the bone about the future and feeling like a needle, like a fish in water, simply able to just do it finally without extreme inertia
>>55442
Actually, this isnt feminine, to our culture it is yes but. The Masculine is order, beauty and the feminine is chaos, technically more accurately you are now apollonian, if you get as such you will be ordered, beautiful and strong, exactly like a needle might be, masculine and feminine express either dionysically or apollonically, a man who is a brute can be a masculine but he is dionysian. Funny thing is that primodially order is masculine and chaos is feminine, so being an uncontrollable brute is feminine
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>>55458
God damn so many fucking retard cunts.
>>55442
Based, there is a certain “feminine quality” that makes a man extremely whole, in a sense (and vice versa for women). A certain softness in features, and being beautiful rather than being rugged, while still being strong.
