I miss bhach man. Really miss it. God I miss you all, you namefags, you schizos you autists. Fuck. Just spent some time scrolling through threads in the internet archive of bhach, god I miss it, I miss my people, my friends, a place where I could be real. My life isn't easy, I mean it's a lot better since last year and I got out of school, but still. Bhach was really a place to escape from my shitty life. Man, I'd love to go back. Can't. Must keep moving on. Got obsessed with a girl this year, fuck I am so fucking obsessed with her, she's so cute, and aware of internet culture I mean she might be slut; she's an alcoholic but I just want her. Fuck man.I don't think she's for me tho, it probably wouldn't work out, being honest. I don't think she's into me, I'm too subhuman. I just really want to feel loved, want a cute girl to cuddle next to me, and hold her tight, and we can be together in our own world, separate and realer than reality.
>>51413
On suicide:
I don't think I have ever been suicidal in my entire life. I mean, yeah, I have been shit on and bullied by everyone, my parents, my schoolmates, whatever due to a certain condition that affects my speech (don't wanna get into). Man, I'd give anything to have perfect unimpedimented speech, I think my whole life would be different. I never really ever felt like killing myself tho, even at my lowest point in life, I felt like I should just carry on and keep moving, just out of interest to see what happens. I don't think I'll ever kill myself, as shit as my life is, and as unlucky the hand I drew was. I wish I was attractive, and tall. Man, why is fate such a cruel mistress. Must've fucked up in a past life.
>>51413
I have some fucked up thoughts in my head, fucked up fantasies, none that I would carry out. I don't know why I have been cursed with such thoughts when what I desire is pure.
>>51417
My actions are impure as well, when I was 16, I groped a girls thigh, her flesh was so soft and pliable, and I felt powerfull, running my fingers accross her soft thigh and squeezing her flesh. This was when I was at one of my lowest points and if she screamed or something I would have just roped. It was almost animalistic and feral. I feel tainted, No woman can ever know my true self, even if it was years ago and I don't think I will do it again. I can't say that I regret it, it simply was, just as my life is.
>>51413
True yaar. All the namefags namely Chicken Pill, Ravi Shastri, Aizen, Pajaat Saab, Rakulcel, Yui Anon, Gangu Mujahid, Haggu, Sandas Anon, and even Dyaush himself would make the place so fun.
