I am too blackpilled to enjoy anything. As a 25 year old loser NEET who missed out on everything i dont get excited by the idea of enjoying things i lost. Nothing excites me..i just hope some chain snatcher bihari kills me while i walk. Or i get in street fight with a jat or gurjar. And they kill me. Or some day i never wake up and in next life i am born as a rich chad
I do not understand ur pain because my baap gave me everything I wanted and then more. although, we are not rich but he made us never feel poor. So yea the problem I have is i haven't lived upto his standards so there's that.
If i wanted to be gone it's because i failed to be the greatest son to the greatest parents in the world.
action precedes motivation
don't become like me
for example i remember going to the beach like maybe 5 or so years ago for no particular reason and i still remember that night because i got to play tag with a bunch of kids there and i had lots of fun
