i used to have a girlfriend in 10th class i think she jainwinly loved me but i messed it up with her i dont know where she is right now we used to meet on the terrace of my building i last saw her on 10/2/2019 i miss her now very much she was very petite nice looking girl i helped her for prepare for boards and she taught me urdu
>>30510
im from a small town but i came to pune for my bachelors yaara city girls scared me at that time it was so cucked and now im doing MSc in distance learning so no action now its over for me
>>30514
>>30514
Did you work on yourself, or do you still act like a street shitting LC subhuman, waiting to just repeat the same mistake?
>>30513
Sounds brutal, arrange marriage is the only option for you. You could ofcourse just be like the soythie or muzzie cucks who love to fatasize about negro cocks.
>>30511
i have a dead end freelancing contract yaara it pays anywhere between 20000 to 24000 per month its enough for petrol semester fees and other stuff i randomly buy online but im a delusional unkil i imagine myself as an army officer with a very decorated career and a cute nice wife as i always wanted to join the army but was aware of the fact that i have extreme scoliosis and sweaty palms im also an inbred child with first cousin parents very gareeb
>>30518
sometimes im a very smart jew hacker who lives in germany and i imagine scenarios where i yell at people and end up yelling at nothing in real life which ends up in my bhungi family calling me a retard sometimes a wealthy billionaire who used to live in slumbai slums and became a billionaire with hardwork
>>30518
>>30522
i always imagine new stories and constantly try to live in them i talk to those imaginary people outloud but my chamaruddin baap tells me do unnecessary house work with him someday i will lash out but i have to be independent first
>>30504
I've lived with this person for 3 years, prevented his suicide, let him live with me, got him a job to become eligible for welfare, registered him formal adress for that and he fucked it up and blamed me. He caused two police/ambulance psychiatry incidents, yet blamed me. He smashed the computer I build out of my little resources for him and complained to be bored when being without it. He eventually was deported officially, leaving me severe issues and eviction notice due to my rent not being carried further. It is a wonder I could keep this apartment for paying it off my welfare for years, "living" off a fraction of the "existential" minimum and yet rebuilding. For all of it he blocked me in the end, unfortunately after sending him some drugs, a laptop and a basic AM4 bundle.
The only good thing is I know he will be always more miserable than me, having hair loss, likely loosing his feminine appearance altogether due to drinking and smoking.
You don't know what suffering truly means. But there may be people with even worse fates. I don't find a meaningful relation either and only get ghosted, insulted or rejected right away. And when I find suitable partner they get deported or not allowed entrace in my shithole country. My hatred is endless, it may be destiny to dedicate one self to it.
>>30530
>>30539
Who said you deserve love pajeet? You are literally subhuman. Arrange marriage and betabuxxing is the best thing you get. Look at yourself in mirror, what you are doing at this time, and what you have even done in so many years of being alive. You can either make peace with being alone or keep seething for life.
>>30542
>You can either make peace with being alone or keep seething for life.
i do both it depends on a lot of things but im mentally ill read the replies above thanks
>>30546
If you are capable of belief, that a foid can not and will not love you, you can just go on and material max. Also pls tell how to make money with free lance, what do u do?
>>30552
instead of listening to insuffrable chuds on this forum then u should jus give up alr kek, cuz like see out of red pill blue bs there IS A FCKIN LIFE like jus try your best fuck 2-3 ugly loooking foids and move on
>>30544
You mean attractive? Because they are boyish and pale white. But most loose their attractiveness until 25 or by 30 at latest, usually paired with drinking, smoking, laziness, general stress.
>>30553
I used to think that way too, told people I'm 25 when I was 18 so they would believe my age and kept doing that after 25, they still think I am in my early 20s due to my looks not being changed. There are exceptions, they are just very rare. Your best option is to start early to work on yourself.
How are you on a bharat board Romanian or VPN?
>>30568
>told people I'm 25 when I was 18
Kek, i do that too. Sometimes i lie about how i am 25, been doing that since i was 15 and all of their insults bounced off me, kek.
>How are you on a bharat board Romanian or VPN?
VPN yaar, a freind told me to always use a VPN with these sites
>>30575
I have read in inbreeding can sometimes make someone too tall. That is how you end up getting super tall pakis, but they all have fucked up phenos.
>>30573
I didn't behave or dress like others in my age. At some point even females from my class were into me but I was autistic and did not expect such but later realized they liked someone appearing mature.
>>30577
That is decent I was 57 KG in full gear before my relation, then near 90, currently around 66 and working on it. 1.70 m
