I am the most miserable person alive. I literally have no one, i got no friends.
You anons seethe about not getting girls, i don't think about getting girl even in my dreams. Those couples enjoying it seems like they are some different alien being to me enjoying themselves in a way that's not possible for me.
I am so pathetic that i envy normal people being normal, seeing them hanging out with friends makes me feel so sad, why i can't live like them.
I don't even have acquaintances or online friends, like the so called loners have. Never ever had childhood friends either, nor in have good bond with my cousins. I was alone forever.
I cried knowing that people have hundreds of contacts saved, they literally save their friends name as college + class + name with surname. While i have just 8 contacts saved including that of my family.
Have 2 followers on instagram, both followed me outta pity.
Sometimes i wonder, what will happen when something serious happens tto me, who will save me. I legit have no one.
And then there are people who gets everything done by the help of their friends.
I failed my exams despite knowing more, while the dumber guy got full marks cuz his friend helped him. This is just beginning, god knows how much am gonna face when entering real world, and will get used daily in my jaab.
>>253697
Interesting. How did you end up like this? Are you a sub5 or disabled or something. I’m one of the “loners” you’re talking about. Almost all my acquaintances/friends are fake friends. I just interact with them on a surface level. And I cut contact if I have to move away. I’m not in touch with my school “friends”.
>>253697
This was me in 1st to 3rd grade. I can understand even if it was that far ago. I don’t have anything to say. You’re in hell looking at heaven.
>>253765
I don't know. I am average looking that too because of my subhuman lifestyle, if not for that i would be considered good looking (by indian standards ofc). I don't know man, afaik i was always alone.
I am too innocent and to be correct too stupid. Everyone used me or betrayed me, i always ended up alone.
I too not have connections with anyone. Not even surface level interaction happens with me, i used spend weeks without any human interaction, zero. Even in kalej, there are days i spend all alone not talking to anyone.
>>253796
Brvtal. What do you mean by subhuman lifestyle? Also college is supposed to be a fresh start did you not interact with people during orientation.
>>253817
I am reasonably good looking, and I had girls during orientation ask me for my insta and one girl asked me to take the same (bullshit) course as her out of the blue. I also got to go for walks at night with this fat chick, she was obviously attracted to me and sent me reels but I didn’t reply Kek. The girls that I want are out of reach.
>>253814
No i didn't interacted during the start and that's how i messed up here too.
Now everyone think i am mentally ill awkward loser (i am).
>subhuman lifestyle?
Waking up at night for no reason, scrolling reels for hours with slouched back, skipping meals randomly, and i spend whole weekends just eating sodium or sugar maxxed slop, no activity, sometimes lying on bed for 15+ hours, i fap twice daily.
Only self care i do is showering daily.
>>253697
I have a different problem. I have a great gf and we spend a lot of time together but I have no friends. I want to make friends. Even one friend.
>>253828
It only happened once, one girl asked for my instagram, it was small talk i somehow ended up in. I think it was more like she wanted to be friend with me, not interested in me. It was so fucking embarrasing to tell i don't use instagram.
>>253817
Yes. If you look outside the online world, you will realize how an AVERAGE human looks. if properly good i for sure look above them, but i consider myself average
>>253835
It won’t help you socially but it’ll help you in other ways. I watched this video by hexumlite, he basically said that fixing reputation is an impossible task. Once a bad reputation is had not even Jesus Allah and Ram combined can do anything to fix it. The only solution is to go to a separate place and then start from zero. Since your gpa is already fucked (ik who you are), the chances of you getting a job or going abroad is near 0. I would suggest you study for JAM or some other msc or MTech examination which you can get and then go to that place and start again.
>>253852
Man if you really knows me, then you should also know it's me second time starting from zero.
I escaped first time too thinking the same, that i messed up my repu in hometown. And will create a better life for me somewhere else, but i failed that time miserably and i am failing here even more miserably.
I don't even have excuse this time, to go somewhere again.
>>253853
Atleast you got one. I don't even have acquaintances in my class. Am failing brutally academically too, while the normies are passing despite knowing even lesser than me.
My brain is fucked up, it can't be repaired. Not a single hour where i don't chase dopamine
>>253854
I am also in the same boat but less fucked. Me in school was your situation rn. I existed in a friend group though but I was ridiculed and mocked behind my back and I even had a kind of gf, who I got to grope around here and there. I also punched one guy in the head after he attacked me and he had to go to the health room so people didn’t fuck with me even if they thought I was retarded or insane or schizo.
>>253862
I had girl proposing me. I being retard didn't even had a normal conversation with her once, and told the incident of her texting me i love you, to my so called friend and he spread the rumour everywhere that i am dating her. I didn't even reply to her.
It was stupid high school drama, nothing more tbh and girl was mid asf.
One girl also had a crush on me, i heard from somewhere.
I was average looking in school days too, maybe cuz i was jestermaxxing that time to hide my NDness, i became somewhat attractive.
>>253869
You should actually get tested for ADHD. I think you have it, I’d bet money you have it. ADHD medication is pretty cheap in India. Will help you. Consult your college doctor or something.
>>253876
Which college do u all go to ?? You can select courses?? You can have on campus doctors ??
Are you even living in india or am I too poorfag ??
>>253876
ADHD fags are normie. I have some weird disease or maybe just some trauma of the past, am so fucking insecure and also have fear about normalest thing.
My symptoms are mix of bpd and ocd, and also the insecurity cuz of past bad experiences.
>>253893
OKay. but why do you want me to go to her? I really have no control over myself and if she makes me feel comfortable i would be sharing my whole damn life and all secrets with her.
I am this desperate for interaction that i start opening up with random stranger. I am afraid. I would tell some white lies in start but will later start revealing myself.
Anon, I was Just like you untill Recently, and I was about to stay Like that But I made some efforts interacting with People I wanted to interact with
I had to become shameless and do the humiliation ritual of approaching people that caught my interest even though I know for a fact I am on autism spectrum and can easily be misunderstood
I'm still bad at talking but atleast people don't mind me when I silently listen to their conversations
