>first day of navratri>vrat time (forced xd)>vrat is not actually a vrat but just an abstinence of fibre, you can literally eat anything else according to modern saars>ghar ki rasoi making literal aaloo tikkis and roasting dried fruits as 'vrat bhojan'>read the chalisa>durga mata, god of justice, the purest representation of nature, war mother>the chalisas and kathaa are filled with the chanter basically asking for alms and protection against bad luck (self-serving agenda) in exchange for worship (clearly conditional and without conviction towards what the deity stands for)>instead of actually asking for the strength needed to fight them yourself>have noticed it in other festivals and kathas as well, sometimes with much worse storylines>do NOT enjoy listening to them at ALL
am i just a mleccha rakhsas prajaati who's stunlocking soul onto another 1000 cycles of samsara by believing in these thoughts? am i actually an awakened brahmin who's onto something about the borderline retarded ways of worshipping and following deities and disciplines in the modern era or am i just a murakh anti-heendoo adharmi who's looking too deep into it? what is going on? it would be one thing if im simply an atheist who doesn't believe in higher powers, but somehow im still compelled to visit mandirs. but sitting in a puja and taking part in ritual actually makes me somewhat angry instead of indifferent. why is this so?
Pongus have twisted worship into cuck tradition. Blame your ancestors. In an older time, you would give blood sacrifice to the gods before going to war. As a tribute. Not bhik mangna. I strongly believe gods dont interfere in the lives of mortals
