Even being born with everything handed to me, I still somehow ended up like this.
I genuinely want to improve, but I can't seem to.
It's like there's some parasite or mental limiter inside my brain that's been slowly dulling my mental capacity over the years.
I used to be one of the brightest in my childhood.
Now I can't find motivation in almost anything.
The time has come for me to leave my parents' house and actually build something of my own, but honestly, the thought of facing all of that feels fucking overwhelming.
I can't catch a break from this endless cycle of hating myself for doing nothing, then continuing to do nothing, then hating myself even more for it.
I don't even know when I became like this.
>>208348
I don't why some of the guys here, thinks exactly like me, with same exactly circumstances.
I want to change and I know its possible but I never do that, why?
Cuz I think planning before doing anything will actually make paths more easy when I find problems coming throughout the journey. So I want be shocked again if I encounter in any form.
One thing that exclude me with everyone is that I can do whatever I want if I want to.
The thing is I have never found the stage where I have absolutely say "okay I'm ready I know what I'm supposed to be, now get going".
I am confident and scared at the same time.
Lol I'm still planning for 5 years.
>>208348
If u was a gifted child I would never be stuck in this current predicament the inability to get myself out of this situation is proof enough that I'm not gifted.
If you find out the solution to getting out of the man of inaction stereotype pls tell me too I'm suffering from that too.
>>208359
Ok this is scary
This was exactly my reply before deleting since it was so early accurate about myself.
How do u know what I'm struggling with?
why is it like you all are living the exact same situation as me ?
Why are your internal battles exactly the same demons I've been fighting?
Can anybody explain this?
Everyone who ascend this place was done because of external factors not by conquering their inner peace.
It's like unless outside help comes we are forever stuck in this same stagnant water called my life.
>>208348
>genuinely want to improve
Pick a number between 1 to 10. Then
>hating myself
It's simple in your case actually, you need eq instead of iq. Call her. If not then call him, the one close to you the person whom you are ready to share. Call you need this.
>>208376
Find window then. It's for your own sake. It's a passive thought stuck. Your smart jeet you will figure this out. Tell her properly this Time.
>>208361
I am not gifted in the sense of having some exceptional intelligence or some unique talent that makes me different from everyone else.
But I was gifted with circumstances.
I was born into a family and a life that gave me more comfort, security and opportunities than most people in the world get. If this were some harsher time in history, or if I had been born into completely different circumstances, I honestly don't know how well I would have survived.
Despite having so much more than what is necessary to get started, I still feel like I'm falling behind.
Maybe external pressure would have changed me. Maybe if I had actually been forced into difficult circumstances, I would've adapted and found out what I'm capable of. Maybe I was never given the conditions that would reveal my actual potential.
Or maybe there isn't some hidden potential waiting to come out.
Or maybe that's just another excuse I'm making for myself.
Maybe I'm just not as capable as I keep telling myself I could be.
I don't know anymore.
It's just an endless cycle.
And I genuinely don't know whether I'm someone who hasn't found his potential yet, or someone who keeps inventing excuses because accepting his limitations is harder.
Maybe that's the most honest part of all of this.
>>208359
>why
You already know the answer.
>actually make paths more easy
Unless you overthinking and never start.
>One thing that exclude me with everyone is that I can do whatever I want if I want to.
Good, well everyone can do what's needs to be done. It's just passion they lack or force.
>>208399
>Not even 20 and already feel like I have aged a lot both physically and mentally.
Literally me yaar
>endless cycle
From the little experience I have I would reccomend you to break the cycle by forcing yourself to do something you would not do to break the stagnancy.
if only I took my own Advice...
>>208422
>break the cycle
But it doesn't feel that simple. It's not a literal cycle that you just step out of once and everything changes. It's more like a pattern I keep falling back into. I can pull myself out for a while and still somehow end up at the same point again.
>>208370
I think the loop, we are in because of the technology, tech can help us but it also draining us down.
My problem is to finalise what my life would be at the particular space (location) and time (age). And it is not possible to actually certain and predict what situation you encounter and live.
I have tons of ideas, to do and work on. Then theirs something comes and says no you should do this instead or you have learn this, this and this before any move to action of doing.
I am not afraid of learning and building in any area of the fields, that is hard. All I want to make something that actually solves a some part of the problem.
I also think I'm incomplete because everytime I surf on the internet a new rabbithole comes in front of me. That said, nobody can have the absolute knowledge of all the eras of wisdom.
I might have found the solution, which is a living accountability partner. Because alone can get you enough space for thinking but in team you can make ideas come true.
I also like the method of building in public but I'm too shy and had to learn a lot and so I'm ready that creates loop in itself.
And laziness, which needed to be eradicated from my system.
I thought I alone can conquer this samsara of living NEET loop, but I've realised it is not possible unless you find someone who can be partner in crime. That's why everyone say find your guru/mentor, but its not necessary, you just need a living ambitious person next to you. AI didn't help me like that, its only good for studying.
Transformation is very cruel to those who think it hurts which I had thought of, but it doesn't. It easy make changes, hard to follow the new changes. That is why people find it they feel comfy when they do something different on some particular day.
One more last thing, from all these years, I've come to know that you don't need to make things complicated. Keep it simple.
This is the note I'm writing here. I am ending this for all atlast and starting now my journey with atleast 1% work done daily consistency.
