gentlemen despite the weather being that damn depressive and spirits in confusion, I would love to inform you, that it was never over and we are so fucking back.
I feel so amazing I don't even wanna go to sleep. I think i might just have it, I have what it takes. Everytime Im worried I don't I just prove myself wrong. It's so fucking amazing
I probably feel the most sharpest and inline with things after having done what I set out to, and even had I failed I'd probably still feel this way. I think I was right, it's about stacking more and doing more. There's something magical that happens when, when you take the imaginary feeling that you get from seeing someone you admire and transmogrify it onto your own essence. Have you ever imagined how that kid in school must be? The simple scenes and tones and smells that pop up, imagine them, this person, what you will see is not them, but a potential of your own self given to you be exercise of imagination, now imagine, how they casually must live with those attributes, and move within your life within the same that you want. I unironically have been doing this since probably 8th grade when I used to imagine embodying the essence of people and receiving it within my mind, I used to imagine taking a shot of it and drinking it, and there I was.
I am genuinely well respected and admired by people now, friends tell me that they can see that I've done things in my life, and they wish they could too, I was once told this exact thing about someone imagining my life once in conversation, they asked me how cool must have it felt to do that thing? and it felt jarring because I realize then that it works. You become the external object of beauty and force that moves within the world.
