>>202552
Same but I dont feel blue, I mean I do, I feel so strongly yk, I can smell it in the air, but I've decided to, not let it turn me to despair but, towards optimism
>>202548
i keep refreshing the page hoping a high quality thread will be posted. I do this in the overboard in the hopes that someone posts in any board other than /b/
>>202560
Something about the smell in the air, my own memories, history, past, heartbreak, the love.
I wake up and I walk in my garden and the leaves are yellowed beneath my feet, there's a starkness in the air, its like winter but, not winter, its autumn ofcourse. It feels like failure, like a cardboard statue erected in the chowk for all to praise.
I dont know, If I sit down and tune in, I can tune into this magnetism in the air, I can see colors and shapes, beaming through my head.
>>202563
But unlike, every single October this october Mr.Anon has decided he wont be a loser. He won't despair. He won't let it override him. He's changing the meaning, he's changing what the season means.
When I look at the trees here, I can see pagan spirits rise in teal spirit ether like vapor, I can feel something, something beckoning in me.
it feels like great spirits are rising, there's radio-magnetic frequencies in the ether, communicating through a secret layer to me, telling me, to raise the roof.
>>202569
And I am, doing shit, a lot of shit, more than I usually ever did. Its risky, experimental, strange, but it can bring great profits, even if not, it will change everything.
>>202581
I've never looked at this stuff man, idk if it works, but tbh the way I am, I will always tell people to not fixate on this stuff, it creates loops and bullshit in the mind
>>202644
There's nothing to be in here, this place no longer even affects me yk. I ignore the bait and bad faith arguments, i like to come here, write, and express myself freely.
I do that a bit more on, my actual work now, which is why no more fun General threads with thoughts much anymore.
Listening to music on speaker and relaxing. I think this is one of the only activities that is, very relaxing, meditation should be but I get sleepy or its just too quiet for me right now.
>>202738
I remember this particular memory from childhood. I was obessed with books, encyclopedias, just to see things.
I recall, maybe waking up early one morning, in fall or was it early winter, there was a fog, the trees were near dead, no leaves much, the sky was grey, and it was beautiful, a strange kind of a cold, beauty.
I remember we wanted to go cycling, and I was looking at the encyclopedia, looking at tour-de-france cyclist gear, one in pink or red polka dots, the name Polka dots, made me feel strange.
>>202757
>>202757
The way I saw things was different. I lived in a haze, of memory and imagination and make-believe.
I look back at the past and observe two realities, my own experienced "factual" (there is no factual past) and my imaginative past.
I was into Dragons, fall, autumn, cold. I loved dragons.
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