Thought of starting a better life this morning. Decided to go on morning walk, just me n my thoughts.
While i was wondering if i should start drinking the milk my pajeet messwala gives or continue relying on calcium tabs, i saw motu gendu chad with stacy. Brootal NT pill hits, day ruined, i can't stop thinking about it.
I fuckin hate seeing couples doing pda in open, i can't stop myself from staring at the stacies wearing revealing clothes. One major reason why i limit myself from going outside. Another being pajeets askin on face, "anonwa don't you have any frens, why u alone". Fuck i can't do my basic work without looking like a weirdo, is it necessary to go shopping with 3-4 jeets along with you or is it written somewhere that only loners go for haircut alone.
Ngl i am like main character in dostoevsky's book, for whom going out once a week is hectic asf task, or a small talk with a stranger is the biggest event happened with him in 6 months. Nothing is happening with me, nothing, just me n my thoughts.
>>189757
Bla bla bla.
Your alone , it's blessing in disguise, you don't have to pretend much.
Milk is good.
Morning walk with thought are Best.
Don't get jealous of some random couple mate. A princess is waiting for you maybe.
>>189775
It's other way around, when I hang out with so called friend, they circle Jerk. And later started making fun of me most likely happen in group of 3 or 5.
I rather consume stuffs then hang out with them
>>189783
This happens cause you are being picked upon if they arent making fun of everybody else
if everyone is keking each other to an extent then you are just have a victim mindset
>>189784
Dont assosicate with what drains you simple if they are making fun of each other dont engage
Only do so when you feel like it dosent drain energy
You are not going to find real frens in kalej just past 4 years with some reatards who you feel comfortable with and ggs
>>189785
So what if I am victim mind set I don't like to hang out with them why are you in forcing me to hang around with them just because you got some better friend than me doesn't make you superior.
I don't like to make fun of other I think it's rude because when they make fun of me I somehow feel little bit hutt and I don't want other person to feel the same that's why I don't make fun of them so rather they make fun of me
>>189788
Yeah but those r just normal frens, not fake ones. There r three types: close ones, normal ones and fake ones
Fake ones are those who are around u only when they need smtg but disappear when you’re in need
>>189788
i won't ever have real frens in my life. It sucks, i had few good frens to trust but i lost them. I won't even have normal frens, god knows how i will survive in future. In india, where connections are everything
>>189800
Well well well.
The only gold friends I have which are not even my friend because as you say I am a victim mental mindset person right. Okay my college is over my school is over in order to make a good friend I need to spend more time with that person. And currently I don't think I have that much of time so the whole idea of having new friends kind of impossible for me
>>189807
Ok unc , i thought you were in kalej if are grad and work then you dont nees frens
I dont i will have frens after kalej cause my frens are there because of circumstances,
>t. Fresher
>>189819
Ik it will be shit after kalej so i am preping for it ,
My bad i thought you were a kalej kid
I think i will same as you after grad working coming home eat, eatch something sleep wake up and repeat
>>189824
Join club make new friend and girlfriend have sex drink smoke get placement before 4th year or before grad . otherwise it's a hard time .
you go enjoy your life as you want experience the same three or four years again will never happens,unless you do the master that's a different scenario but it's not that happening compared bachelor because most of them are need before doing master everyone is quite serial accept for some rich folk
>>189832
I am still in a matrix which I can't break.
Tho I'm thinking of trying spirituality for quite sometime purchase some scriptures/book as well I have keen interest in spirituality since childhood but my parents want allow me they think I will eventually become Sadhvi as I am unmarried and I hate man and I emphasize this part a lot of time and I think that that is now the fear of my parents .
>>189836
Kek , same my parents feared i will become a monk cause i ran away from home to a datamandir when i was kid and the old monk had accepted me after that i did not consume any meat or a year
i should have gone with them my life would have much better but fuck my parents they cared cause i am single child
