/b/ - Random

Consuming weed, smoking cigarettes, and drinking alcohol are nothing but a fucking waste of time. Kitna bhand hoke rahenge yaar, Life mein kuch hai hi nahi For the past five days, I’ve been continuously consuming weed two joints every day(before that we were doing every alternate day, one in the morning and one in the evening. Then yesterday, I got the urge to drink too. And by night, we had two beers, half a bottle of Blenders Pride, a lemon, and God knows how many cigarettes Then this morning, my fucking friend called me at 7 AM, asking me to come at 10 for another session. Yaar, maaki chut. I’m fucking done with this drinking and shit. I decided to stop last year, I promised myself I’d stay completely clean for the whole year. And I actually did it for six months that was a huge change for me. But for the last two or three months, I’ve gone completely ganjad and nashedi. And the worst part is that once you smoke weed, you get the munchies. Then you start going around buying shit, eating fast food, or going to some dhaba for lunch or dinner. On average, one session ends up costing us around ₹1000-1200. 1 thousand rupees. For what? To get bhand, waste an entire day, eat garbage, smoke a shitload of cigarettes, drink alcohol, burn money, and then wake up the next morning and do it all over again. FUCKING HELL. What the fuck am I doing with my life? I know I’m better than this. I stayed clean for six months. I’ve already proved to myself that I can do it. But somehow, over the last few months, I’ve let myself slide back into this fucking cycle. Enough. I’m done with this shit. No more getting bhand. No more drinking. No more smoking. No more wasting 1000s on fucking sessions that leave me with nothing except a hangover, an empty wallet, and another wasted day. FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT I AM. But enough is enough.