/b/ - Random

Long story ahead stay with me now There was a small school in t1 city with 70 kids in their 6th grade in which there was group of 4 boys who quite michevious one day they had placed a bet who can sway other persons crush I was in that group and i had gotten the stacy of grade who was crush of my fren i hatted her to gut and didnt understand why everyone thought she was pretty , i personally thought she was like a old lady since she had pale skin but because bait i had to get her to like me which i didnt but i started liking another girl who was in the same group as her so while pretebding to impress this pale ghost i hoped my crush started liking me fast forward a year later the pale ghost has to transfer school which made our bet invalid, but i continued my effort to impress the sweet girl i liked then covid hit and boom every thing was over The years passed i was in my 10th the group has disbanded when 2 transfered schools and the other kid had gotten another fren group but one thing stayed the same which was the love for her on one day everyone had bought their phones to school when the kid who i had group with showed me that he still was in contact with the pale ghost and asked if our bet was still valid It was tought desicion to make for me who glowed down , seeing me confused he said he wont go behind the sweet girl i liked then what was the prize ? Anything i ask for which he can give , although i knew he wouldnt follow through i took the bet anyway cause of ego i started talking to her thinkimg i can leave any moment since she was living in another city nobody would know months passed 10th ended i lost contact with my crush but guess who i was still texting almost everyday ? The pale ghost but now we were just 'bestfriends' this bestfrens went on for 2 years i thought i liked her , which i later knew i didnt but it was my desparation for some kind of emotional connection in my jeephase then i conffessed which she rejected we blocked each other Only couple of weeks had passed but i got a call it was a new number i picked up and i heared a crying voice 'do you really want to end it like this' she asked i was in my bed jolted up jjst to get her to stop i said no, although i did not want it to end i felt a sense of superiority that i a stacy who everyone considered pretty crying over me kek i barely texted her , in span of those few weeks i had gotten myself a girl who also i didnt like but for social validation i dated a year pass i fail my gayee not devastated since i did not study i knew i would not get good marks confused on what to i just took a gap and in this 3 months i had broken up with my ex , and stopped texting pale ghost cause i didnt feel need for social validation in from the 4 walls in my room year passes i get mid score which i was happy with Ding, whatsapp notification 'hi' , 'who ? ' 'pale ghost' it was her again now was in 1st year telling all the fun she had i still did not feel like talking to her flet like she was just flexing how good her life was compared to a loser like me , i was not a loser nor lesser than her she called on a random rainy day again i picked up and we talked for hours she told me everything how she moved back was staying in room ,found a guy who properly validates her emotional needs is much better than me blah blah and oh yeah they fucked that was the last straw i ended the call mad at myself for picking it up Barely a weeks passes i text out of boredom saying i found a girl and we were happy , oh great she said oh and i was close to getting pregnant nvm that all saw before blocking her again after which i hated myself again for lying about getting a girl I continued with my life got admission in boderline bad college hi i am sorry that was all before she attempted to rope her self i gnored it for a few before calling her again asking wtf she ment by hi sorry then she dropped it that she felt like being raped and the dude she was fucking ignored her went out with other without her blah blah so she tried roping after texting me that i talked to her again saying dont do it etc I did realise what happen i was being used, i did not call her or text ever and 3 months have passed now I was going through my call history trying to find another number when i saw her number and thought of texting her again should i do it ? i also wanna fuck her but i live with my parents and i know i wont get any pussy and will have better luck else where and i still dont like the way she looks but she is considered attractive in lundia standard