Im just lonely. No amount of beauty I have, no smarts, none of my charm or speech help. I was amongst people but I was lonely, I was celebrated, respected, but I was still lonely, I believed it to be looks for a while, but I got compliments and I knew I looked good, but I still had not one friend, I was just lonely. There's no problem, I dont need a female companion, I just have no friends, at all. I dont think im a loser either, Im doing well enough in life, I am not an incel, so, whats going wrong?
>>16939
People, and from the past one man reached out, saying he would have dated me, he wanted to ask me out then but I wasn't single, men and women have no issue with me, I can find a partner but no friend. Currently having left my previous, let's call it, the previous institution, I left with a bad taste. I went for company and found, none, just as lonely as I was at home, or wandering. I tried my best, I tried to connect with people, I was never and am not, introverted, I spoke to lots of people all day, but it never got anywhere, I can't say I was never not a stranger, and now I've disappeared it was like I was never there, unless someone wanted me romantically.
>>16942
I don't know what to do anymore. I use Indiachan to quell this requirement for social existence, my instagram is dead, my whatsapp is dead, I have one friend who is even more miserable than I am, and I havent been able to have a good straight conversation without some, intellectual interjection. I'm at a place where im not likely to find good female company, so that's off the chart.
So just, lonely. I guess this is what everyone's life is like? Maybe a biased take to ask here, so Im not going to. I don't feel like a loser, I, I dont know why this point is important, I guess here I can just be honest, and someone will hear it, even if nonetheless they will ask me "Caste??" or some retarded commentary.
>>16946
I had, 2 girls in the past, and I was close with them, Im close with any woman I know, we still talk, or not, periodically, they still call drunk and sneak in a "I love you" but It didnt change my friend situation. I can't find a good female companion right now, I don't want to invest time into a woman that I don't want seriously, and I guess currently? Location sucks, but even when location did not suck, when there was a sprawl of people, I had nothing, nada.
What I am unable to process is that I wasn't discarded, I was celebrated at times, people knew me, they respected me and my work, no one was ever, rude? Girls were nice, I couldn't try on any of them, I didnt want to, I was with someone. but that's what staggers me.
No one from my past life has reached out, no one as a friend, just to check and talk, only either romantically involved people, so women or gay men.
I fail to understand it. I thought being open, socialable, good at talking, and looking good, being tall and having done things in your life, having achievements would lend to atleast a social circle. But it did nothing.
I am genuinely not introverted, I love talking to people, I would always be involved, in discussion or in any presentation Id kill it, I killed it with my speeches man, but to what use??
I dont suspect Indiachan has the solution, I know it doesn't, but
>>16961
But the thing is that we all are parasocially invovled to Indiachan, or atleast I am, or the internet in general, it's some kind of a quick fast web network of individuals and characters, it's like how life should feel, you should go to a place and meet people or life should have movement, but life is dead. My life now just feels like a set of tasks, do the work, workout, do your job, be productive, rest, don't watch too much content, meditate, be aware, be healthy, maintain everything, read books, that's all, and that's all great but All I have, is rest or work.
I moved away to experience more, but it was the same, but worse, work, work, work.
Its become a cycle somewhat, Get dissatisfied, try change, change doesnt work, return, get dissatisfied again. And god kill me if buddhism is right because that just means it all sucks always and you need to just shutup and be a monk.
