>>169150
nothing. i dont have a goal or a dream or a reson to be alive or exist. ive always felt this way - when i was shotajeet, when i was in skool, kalej, bada kalej, jaab whatever. i feel i do not belong in soycity sometimes. everyone around me wants to do something or have an ideal image of themselves they want to achieve. i never had it, i never had that fire in me.
>>169169
it is quite freeing in a way. ive never needed anything particular to be happy(one can even say - ive never been happy in the first place but that is because i dont even strive to be happy, i move "ahead" only because certain things can be an inconvienience for me). but sometimes i get little bit of FOMO seeing other ppl and their lives.