Feeling like some chamar atp.
Fucking bihari nigger classmate ignored me for some uggo pasmandi.
Long story short, something similar to test happening in class, i being a retard was unaware of it. Bihari was sitting next to me, he knew the answers but he instead of helping me started telling answers to the randi sitting 2 seats next.
I was polite with this nigga, initiated the convo with him. Me initiating talk with someone, like happening for first time in months.
Still he ignored me.
One day i seek for love and next day i feel like i don't need anyone. Sometimes i want to be the man admired by everyone, i feel no lust or loneliness. Maybe the constant humiliation like this has made an impact on my perspective of life. ATP i just want to be the popular guy, the man who is listened by everyone, the man who is respected.
God knows what's wrong with me.
I just can't take this anymore. Either i stay alone and become the weird guy with occasional humiiation or i become the punching bad who gets constantly humiliated. Second one is not bad knowing well that the half of the niggas who initiate convo with me do so to troll me.
How i turned like this, i was the pretty good guy back then.
