> be me> talking to therapist today because brain is cooked> she calls me smart, kek ok whatever> trying to explain why internal self talk does jack shit when i dissociate or freeze up> tell her it feels like riding in a bus if there is a collision, everyone inside gets hurt yelling as a bus driver inside a crashing cabin doesn't do shit but if i speak out loud using my physical mouth, it becomes an external police PA speaker instead and actually helps if the vehicle gets stuck, i can't just rev the engine high or the transmission will burn out and I have to shift to a lower gear and slowly crawl out of it> therapist actually agrees with me>mfw the entire outcome of today's therapy session is that i am a fucking bus.
honk honk bros, am i gonna make it?
