Raksha bandhan today
And I am at kalej
In our family customs on paternal side we don't celebrate raksha bandhan
Now it's a three holiday it's not like I wanted to go home really bad abhi to semester chal ho hua hai
I was at home for 2 months. Par meri cousin hai ek vo America ja rhi thi. She would come back after a year
My parents insisted I should come home par off all circumstances mai gaya hi nhi. Phele taxi ke 3000 jane ke fir metro (which I dont travel alone in only with friends)
Be whtever but ab vo ek saal bad hi dikhengi
Mujhe jab bhi online aryan kang karna hota hai mei unke haath ki photo bhej deta hu. Only female I've ever talked to
Why I am not anyone's favourite is cause I can't put effort into any relation. Not frends not familial all due to imposter syndrome but only if people knew how much I really adore them
>>135345
The key problem why I can't show affection and I act like a NPC or distance myself from people or frends is because I often think I am not as nessecary to them
Every now and then I think all my friends have better friends so sometimes I just prefer going alone to events until they call me
Don't call relatives cause they would think "huh why he even calling me"
Unfriended the only online frend I've ever had cause I thought nah I am getting too close they have other people "better frends" to cater too
Whenever any friend of mine starts going on how our bond is so strong blah blah I just passively hear
I fail to show affection in any relation cause it always pops in my head I am not as important to them
None of my best frends have me as a best frend
>>135383
Are you me? Even I think like that. When I have an urge to call my sister or friends, I just think 'ugh they'll find it annoying' so I call them when only absolutely necessary. The only person I call daily is my mom.
